I hate getting mad, I hate the fact that people are always scared of my tempers. That they always expect me to over-react, get violent, to hit back. Am not an angry person, I just hate being disappointed and people taking advantage of me; people who make me feel that am not worth it, that I don’t deserve better, that I cant achieve my goals. I hate myself more for being complacent to their theories, for giving up at any sign of difficulty, for not fighting for what I want, for being silent. No war in life can be won with my mouth shut. Even the greatest activities in the world had to air their view

According to Mel Robbins, your brain takes 5 seconds to convince itself that what you intend to do is not a good idea, I think my brain takes fewer seconds than that.

I want to be the best mother that I can be and I cant do that if I convince myself out of anything that should be working for me; if I keep letting people run my life, to shut me up whenever I want to speak.  Am grown a** woman and it’s about time I took charge of my life.


Help me understand!

I have been racking my head for months trying to find a reason that will come close to justifying their behavior but I have been unable to.

The reason; they have no other choice doesn’t seem to make sense.

Its has become a norm in  Nairobi to see women with infants on street corners asking for donations.
I hope I won’t sound judgemental, or harsh, and I know from experience every single mother passes through that stage where they feel desperate. There are bills that have to be paid, your baby has to eat, dress, you need to buy diapers ! So I understand the need to go out and earn that extra coin.

What am not clear about is why bring your kids with you. My parents always remind me that they raised us to be better than them, to surpass them.

So the fact that as a mother you will be very okey  bringing your infant child who is not more than a year old and sit in the cold Nairobi streets waiting for strangers to drop something in the donation cup is very disturbing.

Why does it seem okey to you , for your kids to accept that they only need hand-outs to make it to end months. Why don’t you want your child to grow up knowing that you can work for everything that you desire. It won’t be easy, but you can get to where you want to be.

What will happens when you are older and your daughter and granddaughter are seated in the same corner that you raised her ?

Will you be okey with that?

At this day and age there are so many things you can do that will still earn you that extra coin that you are looking for. Wash clothes, decide to be a part time DM and even if you will still decide to seat around the whole day and wait for hand-outs. Then don’t let you children know that you do it.

Let them grow up knowing that their mum worked her ass off to give them, the little that they have.

In return you will raise children who are hard working, who are determined to get everything that they need in life, and definitely make your life better.


Life Updates

Its been a while since i last posted,  Xander and i are both fine, We are almost 10 months, He love yogurt, and watching ChuChu TV. He a very happy child always smiling and laughing. he learnt how to start just the other day, so we are still not able to crawl or walk.

I found a wonderful Nanny, she is very good with Xander (I hope she will stay longer than the rest)

Am working hard,hustling harder and being the very best that i can be.  Trying to make ends meet and reduce on cost ( Am now a pro in making Multi-purpose liquid washing soap)

My learning how to take care of My natural hair, by the courtesy of Tricias Naturals, you should follow their page on Facebook.

Will try and be more keen on writing and posting articles on finance,Home decor, Diy, And money saving tips.

As Always



Baby food: Spinach puree

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My son has been eating since he was 2 months old, three months down the line he is teething, and has tried various fruits.

Since formula will only provide him, with the essentials i have been trying to find different foods that will give him the nutrients that he needs to be strong and healthy.

benefits of Spinach include and are not limited to

  • Rich in iron. Iron plays a central role in the function of red blood cells which help in transporting oxygen around the body.
  • Spinach is also an excellent source of vitamin K, vitamin A, vitamin C and folic acid as well as being a good source of manganese, magnesium, iron and vitamin B2.
  • Vitamin K is important for maintaining bone health and it is difficult to find vegetables richer in vitamin K than spinach.


  • Spinach ( 1 Leaf)
  • Paw paw ( 1/2 a small-sized paw paw)
  • 1 banana

produces 3 servings

  • Steam /boil the spinach for 3 mins,
  • After its cool. place it in the blender and add the paw paw and sliced banana
  • blend until its fine.


The extras can be stored in the freezer for use the following day. if not the extras can serve as a green smoothie.

I found this 6 small glass containers with rubber tops that are very good for storing, at tuskys beba beba.

Xander loves it, and has not reacted negatively to the food

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NB: Paw paw and bananas  impoves on the taste while also adding nutrients.



The first laugh

Every parent lives for the milestones that their child goes through. And yesterday evening i was able to experience one of the many milestones that my son will go through.

He laughed, with sound and it was amazing, and shocking at the same time. I had gotten used to him opening his mouth and no sound coming out.. I have never felt more proud.

Motherhood is not easy but when your child  grows up to do the little things that show he is okay and healthy you feel a sense of hope. Hope that you will have better days ahead.

You are more determined to do what it takes to ensure that he won’t luck anything in his entire life..

You are thankful to God for the time that he has already given both of you and you pray that  you will be able to live to see him married, successful with children..



Carrot Puree

Its always good to give your child a variety of foods when he is weaning his stomach is able to adapt well. so after two months of Xander feeding on paw-paw, banana and the occasional avocado. I figured it was about time is started diversifying.

After alot of goggling I came across  Carrot purées, it was easy to make and I also had some carrot that I hadn’t gotten around to using in my fridge.



1/2 a glass of water


Peel the carrots and dice them small sizes.

place them in a sufuria add the glass of water and let it boil until soft

Put the water plus  the carrots in a blender and blend into a puree.

Xander loves it.

I used four small carrot and the puree was enough for him to eat it twice. The remaining batch I placed it in a glass jar and placed it in the freezer






Breast Milk, Nan And Pawpaw

Am not sure if I have forgiven myself yet. There is nothing as painful as knowing that I can’t give my son  what he needs. We all know that its advisable to exclusively breastfeed your child for six months but not all women are able to get that far..
I started Xander on formula when he was 2 days old, since what little milk I have didn’t satisfy him.. When someone asks me why am not pumping and I tell them I dont have enough milk they  are harsh and look at me as if am a bad mother whose not giving her son what he needs….
I have tried everything from njahi, to oxtail soup,a herb called moringa, porridge, traditional vegetables. Tea ,cocoa, chocolate. Breast feeding every three hours and still nothing…
Am lucky since he has no allergy and has really grown, At two month I started him on pawpaw and he still responded well. Am still giving him pawpaw , formula and breast milk at night.

Its now almost four months and I am trying to introduce him to  other foods so that he can supplement on the nutrients that he needs. So this week it’s apple and carrot puree.

Post on how I made them and Xanders response on the food




Day 3:What you need to know about breastfeeding

Breastfeeding is very important for our kids. Hence its very important for us  to try and ensure we have sufficient milk for them. So below are some lesson I have learnt .
1.While still pregnant ensure that you massage your nipples while showering so that, they protrude and are not sunken. Sunken nipples are hard for the baby to suckle immediately after birth. My doctor told me that at 20 weeks you can  use a breast pump to pull the nipple or an even better method is to have your boyfriend or husband play with it.
2. After childbirth ensure that the baby tries to suckle. Everyone is different:  there are those who will be able to have milk immediately and there are those who will struggle for a while. Whichever the situation. Drink a lot of hot liquids (it aids in milk production), and they say milk production is in your head so ensure that psychologically and mentally you are prepared to breastfeed.
3. Since its your first time to breast feed you may have issues with cracked nipples so ensure the doctors show you the best posture, and breast feeding position to use. If you do get the cracked nipples dont stop breastfeeding the baby no matter how painful it is. If you stop breastfeeding the breast may have more un-reversible conditions.
As a method of treatment, wash your breast with warm water and apply some Vaseline after every feeding and you will be better in no time.
4. Nutrition is important.  Ensure that you eat a balanced diet. Am not sure if there is any correlation between food and milk, but eat as much as possible. Everyone is different there are those who claim that black beans(njahi) is very good with milk production, some say sugarcane, porridge, oxtail soup, Hot cocoa. Find what works for you and consume it in plenty.

There is nothing as bad a knowing that you dont have enough milk to satisfy your baby, you feel like you have already started failing as a mother. Everyday is a learning day, and you will rarely find a day that is similar to the other. Ensure that you eat what you have to, drink all the liquids you can get, and most important maintain a stress free mind, and milk production will increase.

Kindly share any other method that can be used to stimulate milk production.


To my Son


Its 11 days to the day that you expected to enter this world and am excited and honoured to have carried you in my womb for the last 38 weeks and 3 days; it has been a journey of enlightenment, and self discovery.

I know that life will not be easy, there will be days we will cry, others will laugh and others we will put on  a brave face and soldier on; but with every emotion that we face we shall always be a family and always be there for each other

Am working hard to ensure that you get a goods education, both at school and at home so that you can be a well rounded Gentleman

I hope you will play a sport,  and whatever sport you decide to play I will be your number one fan. If you will not be into sports I will support you in any other extra curricular activities that you will like.

It wont matter to me if you are tall or short for as long as by the end of the day you are a gentleman, respectful and kind.

I know that there will be a time that we will fight and we  wont be in terms, I hope that you will be able to understand that I Love you and I want you to only have the best and most of all that we can forgive each other and still be a family

When the time comes I hope you will be free enough to tell me, some of the things that disturb you and who you are dating. We will be free enough with each other for you to accept my advise when I tell you Safe sex is important.

When you meet your better Half, I hope she will love you for who you are not for what you have, the two of you will accept each other and complement each other. That you will be a wise enough to know that hitting a woman or abusing her doesn’t make you  a MAN, it just makes you weak.

When she gets pregnant, be with her every step of the way, let her know that you are there for her and the baby, because that is all we (women) really want.

I promise to raise you believing not only in God but also in yourself, I hope you will do the same for your Kids

I love you and will always be there for you.





We  are just coming to the end of the year and I couldn’t be happier,  I have 12 days left to my Estimated due date and every day I wake up being more anxious about the responsibilities that lie ahead of me and mostly the ‘labour process’ I have heard amazing to terrifying stories about child birth, keep hoping my child birth process will be amazing.

These days I cant help but think of all the financial mistakes that I  made this year and how am going to recover and raise my Baby well. So I have been looking into the different avenues that I can use to make a few extra bucks and save more. I have already started working on some, I intend to start others in January, and will definitely advise you on what works and fails so that you can be debt free and invest more.

Some of the ideas that I have started working on are

Online jobs.

There are a couple of jobs that you can find and do online from Spreadshirt for the designers, Etsy for the Do It Yourself enthusiasts (the websites promotes creativity and uniqueness) Olx when you are trying to De-clutter your home. Iwriter and Freelancer for writing jobs; and many other jobs that are perfectly curtailed to your  specific field.

Do It Yourself Projects,

I love DIY, and I do a couple of them monthly especially when it comes to home organisation or home décor. (One of my objectives in life is to do home décor and diy full-time) at the moment, am working on Door mat weaving.

Saving techniques

There are a lot of saving techniques out there, I came across the 52 weeks money challenge and so far i love it, my folks will start the challenge at the beginning of the year

Am also looking into saving plans that will help me reduce my monthly spending, and so far am looking into the 31 Days of living well and spending Zero. I intend to do it in February or March after I have calculated my monthly savings with the new changes in my life. Though I still intend to look into other ideas and try them out.

They say, its never to late to try, and the year might be ending, but its still not late for me to try and remedy the financial mistakes that I have made in 2015 and live a better 2016.

Wish me Luck